Howdy. My whole week has focused much on military training. COLT, the thing that made my whole body sore, made me feel my left foot was sprained. I put effort in it; but not much, nor less. The fact that I'm not certain if I'll ever have a good rank made me thought of quitting. Besides, I got in just because they needed replacements for the people who passed the test but didn’t care. “To you newbies, keep in mind that you are just replacements and even though you’re far better than the old trainees, still you can’t get a higher position than them.” Quoted from what our instructor would usually say. He tries to put that up in every discussion he makes with us. It’s heart breaking, though I already knew the consequences when my classmates were still nagging on me to join. But still, I wish I just didn’t take the offer. It’s a cheap offer, I must say. For now, it’s just a waste of time dealing with unreasonable people. Even though the five-day training, ah scratch that.. I just attended for four days.. Even though the four-day training was half-day, once I reach home, I was already dead tired.

When they asked who applied for S6 whose job is Information, I believe there were only a few who raised his hand. I was quite relieved to think I have only a few competitors for the rank. Haha. But then, a nonsense thing came up and ruined my mood. Since the Binatbatan Festival is held every May, our school is needed to participate in the said act. And the main point here is that, when you join in the dancing for the festival, your rank will be moved a notch or two. I just can’t find any possible connection of CAT with the dancing. It’s two different things and yet they’re trying to blend it with each other. Now, what’s my point again? How about US who have bones as hard as rocks and feet that are glued on the ground? Our instructor, again, keeps on reprimanding us for not participating. He says we don’t even know how to help our school, and he’s sorry if the ones who joined will have higher ranks than us. He keeps on blabbing nonsense. ‘So what? If that’s going to happen, then I don’t care anymore.’

Enough of the first dilemma, ‘cause here comes another one. My mom told me the other day that we’ll be going to Ilocos Norte yesterday to attend a graduation party of her former officemate’s child who got in at PSHS-IRC. She told me to wait for her call for me to get dressed, but I didn’t receive any call or sms; Until she got home and told me we aren’t going anymore ‘cause the 4:00PM bus already left us. I was disappointed. I was giddy the time she told me we’re going. I just wanted to go somewhere I’m not familiar with and I thought my simple wish would be granted until reality slapped me. I’ll just have to wait for the Baguio overnight escapade she just told me. And though I haven’t been to Baguio, I’m not expecting that much anymore because I already know her. My mom often breaks her promises. She told me a hundred times that we’re going to watch movie flicks in the movie house, but none of that were given life. But I can tolerate it now.

How many dilemmas have I already said? Two. Here comes the last for today. Super Junior has already arrived at NAIA this morning and I missed it. That’s one of the reasons why I hate living in the province. I’m so far away with civilization and I just have to accept the fact that not everything is possible. It will cost a lot in going to Manila without a ride, and without somewhere to stay in. I’m jealous with all the fangirls who did riot in the airport. I’m more jealous with the ones who will go to the concert tomorrow. I’m jealous, but I too is excited for them. The feeling of seeing your idols is one of the greatest things that couldn’t be described with words.

Howdy. My whole week has focused much on military training. COLT, the thing that made my whole body sore, made me feel my left foot was sprained. I put effort in it; but not much, nor less. The fact that I'm not certain if I'll ever have a good rank made me thought of quitting. Besides, I got in just because they needed replacements for the people who passed the test but didn’t care. “To you newbies, keep in mind that you are just replacements and even though you’re far better than the old trainees, still you can’t get a higher position than them.” Quoted from what our instructor would usually say. He tries to put that up in every discussion he makes with us. It’s heart breaking, though I already knew the consequences when my classmates were still nagging on me to join. But still, I wish I just didn’t take the offer. It’s a cheap offer, I must say. For now, it’s just a waste of time dealing with unreasonable people. Even though the five-day training, ah scratch that.. I just attended for four days.. Even though the four-day training was half-day, once I reach home, I was already dead tired.

When they asked who applied for S6 whose job is Information, I believe there were only a few who raised his hand. I was quite relieved to think I have only a few competitors for the rank. Haha. But then, a nonsense thing came up and ruined my mood. Since the Binatbatan Festival is held every May, our school is needed to participate in the said act. And the main point here is that, when you join in the dancing for the festival, your rank will be moved a notch or two. I just can’t find any possible connection of CAT with the dancing. It’s two different things and yet they’re trying to blend it with each other. Now, what’s my point again? How about US who have bones as hard as rocks and feet that are glued on the ground? Our instructor, again, keeps on reprimanding us for not participating. He says we don’t even know how to help our school, and he’s sorry if the ones who joined will have higher ranks than us. He keeps on blabbing nonsense. ‘So what? If that’s going to happen, then I don’t care anymore.’

Enough of the first dilemma, ‘cause here comes another one. My mom told me the other day that we’ll be going to Ilocos Norte yesterday to attend a graduation party of her former officemate’s child who got in at PSHS-IRC. She told me to wait for her call for me to get dressed, but I didn’t receive any call or sms; Until she got home and told me we aren’t going anymore ‘cause the 4:00PM bus already left us. I was disappointed. I was giddy the time she told me we’re going. I just wanted to go somewhere I’m not familiar with and I thought my simple wish would be granted until reality slapped me. I’ll just have to wait for the Baguio overnight escapade she just told me. And though I haven’t been to Baguio, I’m not expecting that much anymore because I already know her. My mom often breaks her promises. She told me a hundred times that we’re going to watch movie flicks in the movie house, but none of that were given life. But I can tolerate it now.

How many dilemmas have I already said? Two. Here comes the last for today. Super Junior has already arrived at NAIA this morning and I missed it. That’s one of the reasons why I hate living in the province. I’m so far away with civilization and I just have to accept the fact that not everything is possible. It will cost a lot in going to Manila without a ride, and without somewhere to stay in. I’m jealous with all the fangirls who did riot in the airport. I’m more jealous with the ones who will go to the concert tomorrow. I’m jealous, but I too is excited for them. The feeling of seeing your idols is one of the greatest things that couldn’t be described with words.

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